I was so relieved, happy and contented when I got home from my SOZO on Wednesday lunchtime. I strongly experienced God’s presence while I was with you. God is faithful. God is gracious. God is holy. God is so loving. God is eternal. This was truly wonderful, awesome and liberating. I feel released from the crushing burdens, and the heaviness inside me has gone. It did me good to forgive everyone and everything. I’m experiencing restoration. God heals wonderfully! He is moving me more and more into my destiny. I have become a new creation. I can live unburdened once again. I can breathe again. God truly is good. HE has done great things to me! I thank HIM with all my heart for the help and inner healing He has given me! I have been given a healthy soul. I give you my heartfelt thanks for the refreshing, sensitive and loving way in which you partnered with the Holy Trinity to walk me through this morning’s Sozo ministry time. You’re worth your weight in gold! Halleluja! Living in freedom is an indescribably wonderful fact – and truth! I declare the precious truths over my life every day. I am a beloved daughter of the King! I have the privilege of enjoying an increasingly Spirit-filled life. HE is greater than everything! I am thankful for this great and wonderful transformation in my life! The foundation is God!
I thought the SOZO was good. It wasn’t exactly an epiphany moment for me, but it was certainly helpful and I was met with a caring, loving atmosphere. Not until the day after did God show me a wound from my past. At first glance, it doesn’t actually seem all that much. This was the situation: I was on holiday in Spain, in a vacation village with its own theatre in which guests sang and danced as well. The performances were rehearsed with the guests by a choreographer. I was asked to rehearse “Singing in the rain” with another guest. And so the choreographer practised with us. Two days before the performance, she told us that unfortunately, she was going to have to go away, but not to worry, we would manage alright on the night. We were shocked, and tried to work out how to finish our act on our own. At the performance, we were given costumes that we had never tried on, and when the song began there was suddenly another dancer on stage with us. All of the dance-moves we had rehearsed were completely messed up because of the third dancer. So there we were, helplessly improvising dance moves before a hall full of people. In our house-church the day after my SOZO, we prayed and asked God to show me what the main injury was. Then it struck me that I had wanted to cancel there, but had allowed my sense of duty to put me in this stressful position. Duty and obligation, whether instilled in my upbringing or by self-enslavement. That’s what God wanted to set me free from. This was a liberating surprise for me, then – SOZO is effective on the day after, too!
When I read your e-mail, I realised straight away that I wanted to answer it. I thought about it for a long time and recalled what had taken place. I knew that a lot had happened, but a single experience in isolation didn’t seem exciting enough to warrant telling it, even though I felt lighter and freer after it. Now I wanted to write something but didn’t know what until my wife reminded me of the core issue of the two SOZOs I had received: The SOZOs made me realise that I can hear God – now I have the courage to ask God things, and the certainty that He responds.
In my SOZO Jesus showed me that the Door of Fear was open in my life. When I asked Jesus when this door was first opened, a childhood experience came to mind in which I felt afraid to openly express my feelings towards my father. After I had forgiven my father and renounced the lie that people will turn away from me or abandon me if I candidly voice my opinion and express my feelings, Jesus showed me the truth that it is actually attractive for other people when I openly and honestly show them my heart. Then I saw many lengths of white wallpaper covering the wall where the Door of Fear had been and which Jesus had now closed. I am amazed at the impactful way in which Jesus freed me from a fear which I had had for such a long time, and at how simple it was.
I’m doing better now. I’ve learnt how to talk with God once more, and now also sense that He’s listening to me. Before, I had completely lost this due to my feelings of guilt. I know now that He’s listening to me again (He was doing before as well, but I just wasn’t perceiving it) and that he answers prayer. I particularly experienced this in connection with the acute chest pain where I had asked Him to intervene. But what gladdened me even more than my pain disappearing was the feeling of being heard. I still need time to process everything, but I’m on the right track. And I can feel that He is walking beside me. Once again, a heartfelt “thank you” to you for all your hard work. I know it will bear fruit. And of course, please feel free to pass on anything of what I have written.
I cannot say what exactly God has healed, or is still healing, in my heart as a result of my SOZO. The SOZO was not a particularly exciting or special experience. I simply spoke with our triune God and forgave whatever needed to be forgiven. All the while, I didn’t feel anything special. However, since my SOZO I’ve been behaving differently. My craving to have everything under control, the feeling that nothing can go right if I’m not in charge – all this has drastically subsided. There are things where, before my SOZO, I would simply have had to check that all those involved were playing their respective roles and that justice really was being done, and that nowadays I almost completely forget. I do my part and leave it up to the others to do theirs. Something else I’ve noticed since my SOZO is that I’m much less of a people-pleaser and I no longer need to be busy all the time in one way or another. If I simply do nothing every so often, that’s OK too. And I even manage to enjoy times like these! After my SOZO I was able to be genuinely reconciled with my mother. This would have been unthinkable for me before the SOZO. Since then, our withered mother-daughter relationship has begun to grow. All of a sudden, it has become possible for us to share with one another our lives and our hearts.
My SOZO session was a very positive experience for me. It was striking just how clearly I heard God there. What I greatly appreciated was that the messages I received from God were all written down for me so that I can read them over and over again. I couldn’t say exactly all the things God healed and did during my SOZO, but I would definitely recommend a SOZO to anybody who thinks they don’t hear from God.
My SOZO was very encouraging. God uncovered some areas that I had not been sufficiently aware of. I can’t really give a proper ‘testimony’ just yet, but what I can say is that it went deep. Now I read the truths of how God sees me and how He revealed Himself to me in my SOZO every day. I practise seeing myself the way He sees me. I want to see myself as He sees me. This is extremely encouraging and liberating. In my SOZO He touched deep-seated areas of my character structure that go all the way back to my upbringing and youth. Now He is calling upon me to grow from this newly-won freedom into a lifestyle that is ever more Jesus-like. I think SOZO is a great instrument to foster this learning process (of discipleship) effectively.